Sunday, 22 February 2015

It's so expensive to live in this country. I love it here but financially I cannot support myself.

What I'm most afraid of is that I barely have any earnings since I have been going to school since I was 4 years old. For 16 years now, I've been studying and expanding my knowledge. And I know that there's at least another 4 years of studying to go. 

By then, I would be 24 and afraid to start a family because I know that I would not have money to feed them as I would have to spend what I earn to pay off my education loan. 

My goal is to have kids by 28, latest. At the look of things now, it's honestly impossible unless I hit jackpot and win a house.

Many times, I feel like I can just stop once I get a diploma and just build a career from there. But being in a country where education is top priority in getting jobs and whatnots, it's not easy fulfilling that decision. 

What other options do we have anyway? If only I was born in 1970s. Where having an 'O' level certificate was a big deal, having a PSLE pass meant that you could have a job that pays $2,500 a month as they only cared about your skills and not level of education. 

Whenever the older generation comments on how they did this and that when they were our age need to realise that times have change drastically. We wish we were able to do what they've been able to accomplish, but sadly it's just not possible with the expectation of society. 

My biggest fear now is not having a roof above my head some time in life. The cost of the housing now is ridiculous. My mission is to get my parents to purchase a freehold apartment/house. This will put a peace in my mind that I'll have a home forever. Regardless of anything, there'll always be a roof above my head. Selfish? Maybe. 

I know for sure that I'm not the only one with this fear in our society right now. 

Friday, 20 February 2015

I decided to private some of my older posts because I felt like they were too personal for me to leave it out there. For those who've read it, I doubt you will remember so it's good. 

I've taken a 2 week hiatus (my last post was 6 Feb but i privated that). 

There were many things that I wanted to blog about but just didn't have the time to sit and type my emotions out when I could've been doing something more productive. As I've said before, I'm not one to share my feelings. But I know it's not good to hold it all in. 

I contradict myself a lot. A hypocrite if you will. I don't support the way I live my life. I know there could be so much I could do to be more productive and live a happier, healthier lifestyle. Sadly, I just don't heed my own advice. 

Is that something only I suffer from? Not heeding one's own advice.
It's painful sometimes to think that I could be living a different way of life just by doing a few things differently. 
My goal this year is to accept and appreciate who I really am. Not live the life full of hypocrisies. Have fun. Maybe lose a little weight. Get active again. The list goes on. I might have wasted 2 months of 2015, but there's still 10 more to go. Anything can happen. Everything can change. Confidence is all it takes. 
Bless you for reading all the way here. Appreciate your effort and support of listening to my ramblings.